"what am i supposed to do? what is it about"?
"you're the hero, the main character"
i just kept silent , placed my hands into my pockets and walked back to my table.
sat down, took out a metal ruler,
placed my head down and started vandalising the table silently.
but the more i vandalised,
the louder it got and i attracted attention.
that bastard came over to my table .
"are you okay??"
"well duh, im fine"
"sure or not?"
"arggh!"
i stood up , walked out,and
exposed what i vandalised on the innocent table .
'stupid M****r F*****rs' was what i vandalised.

at night, went to a "sparklers festival"
saw a lot of peopl playing sparklers.
so took some and played with it.
the rest stayed in the car.
discussing about the play.

then, stood up. walked away from where i was sitting,
passed by the car,
and went behind a wall.
looked for a dustbin and threw the used sparklers away.
since there were a few people by the wall,
i just sat there, leaning against it.

sat there quite long.
and was wondering, why weren't they looking for me.
so, got up and looked for them.
just as i thought.
they left.
"don't they know i wasn't even in the fucking car?"
took a cab home myself.
next day, after school,
followed them to eastpoint.
6 of us.
me and bestie stayed at the ground floor.
the rest went to banquet to get food.
bestie wanted to put shiny fake jewels on her phone,
so, acompanied her to the stall.
it was at the atrium.
i was thinking of things that had happened.
"eh, you stay here, don't go anywhere. wait until they come back. i need to do something for awhile"
"okay"

so i walked out of eastpoint. walked aimlessly. no where to go.
i just gave an excuse so that i could get away from there.
as i was walking, bestie followed secretly.
i then used my leg and kicked backwards,
right into her stomach.
and i turned around.
"ï told you to stay there.."
"-.-"
"GO!"
well, bestie went back.
so, i just
walked straight ,
passed the bubble tea shop, passed the old chang kee.
and i just stopped at the side of the road.
looked around and saw someone.
and old friend..
waved eagerly at her..
and she waved back.
waited till she crossed.
i then headed over to the traffic light,
welcomed her
and we walked back home.

i left them behind.
we were supposed to discuss about the play.
but i had to.
cos i couldn't take it anymore.
i just thought to myself.
"what the heck. they won't even fucking realise that im gone"
after half an hour of walking, we were almost home.
that's where i received a call.
"eh, where are you?! "
"why?"
"we need to discuss about the play!!"
"you all won't need me. "
"oh yes we need you laahh! "
"nope. you won't. you didn't even fucking realise that im gone. "
"well we did"
"yeahh, after half an hour"
"..."
"you all treat me like rubbish don't ya? hmph, i didnt even know how
fucking selfish you all are"
"what are you talking about?"
"ohh, what im talking about yeah? you fucking left me behind
yesterday huh, at the festival.you didnt even know that i left the car!! "
"yes we did"
"no you don't. you all went off without me."
"cos we didn't see you around"
"ohh, like that ah.. DON'T YOU ALL EVEN BOTHER
TO LOOK FOR ME? I WAS THERE WAITING AND YOU DIDNT.
THIS SHOWS HOW SELFISH YOU ALL ARE. AND NOT TO MENTION, JERKS TOO!"
"we did look for you"
"oh yeah? cos i didnt see you looking for me.
cos from where i was, i could see all of you. you all just waited and left"
"..."
"argghh!, nevermind, i don't wanna fight with all of you anymore.
and by the way, all of you won't see me anymore"
"why ?!"
"cos im migrating to london"
"why didn't you inform us? "
"inform you for what? so that you will treat me nicely.? and hide your selfish selfs?
no need ah!
i know how all of you are. you're just hollow and filled with selfishness.
and i don't wanna bring any of the memories we had to london.
i'll just leave 'em here. so, ... goodbye"

i hung up the phone. took the sim card out, broke it in half and smiled.
i threw the card away in the nearest bin and continued my journey
home with my good friend.

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the story above^ is the dream i had last night.
well, i hope you guys didn't think it was real.
:D
well, that's all.
:D

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